Fingers crossed....so far so good!

What I need...ASAP!

Ok, living at home, honestly, hasn't been so bad. However, I think now is the time to MOVE OUT! It's hard being back home, especially since I moved out when I was 15. I like to think I have done really well and been very patient. I am just at the end of my patience and without getting aggravated I would like to be on my way, have my own space and do things the way I like.

I don't even remember my things...I miss my stuff, my dishes and decorations. I packed my life in 1.5 weeks and threw things in boxes thinking I would get them out soon. Well that was before I traveled for 6 months and so not only did I travel, but I have been home for over a year! I wanna open my boxes and see old pictures that I had framed, look through my books and movies and see what I dumped out of my drawers.

I just miss having my life and although I love my parents to death and I do enjoy being with them, I feel as though I have taken on even more responsibility by living here. I have more to deal with and I just don't know if I can handle it. I just need some space and time for me....

I'm ready for a vacation; some place far from here and not a worry in my mind...

I can't believe that it's been 3 months since Hamid has passed. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him. Some days I'm ok with it all and I think about how blessed we all are to have had him here for this time. Other days, days like today, I can't seem to keep the tears from rolling down my face.

You will be forever missed!