Catching up

Yet again I have fallen behind with writing. In the end there is really no excuse other than the fact that I haven't put the time aside. I thought I would have time in Canada to write more, but we just seemed to be so busy. Anyway the rest of my trip was great, we got to see Montreal and I really loved it there.

I was sad to part with my family, as I always am, but at the same time I was ready to be home. Nothing to do with my family, of course, it was weird I just missed being home. I missed my routine and being here. I thought this was interesting because I traveled all over and never felt that way. Maybe I just knew then that my trip was long then and I was mentally prepared to be gone for a few months.

When I got home I unpacked and was settled back in before I went to bed! Since I have been back things have been quite busy. I spent the first few days playing catch up and working like crazy. That isn't any surprise, hours go by sometimes and I realize I haven't let my computer.

Now things seems to have slowed down a bit as I am waiting on others for a few things. The big news will come once my dad returns from his trip. All things will come done to a single decision and that terrifies me. 7 months of hard work and I am waiting to hear "we got the contract"! What if...what if...I try not to even let that enter my mind.

In the long run a few months to a year isn't anything and I know that, but still you can't help but worry. Anyhow, I can't think about what I can't control and as long as I believe that, this is what I am going to do.

Other than that life is good, my mom and I spent the weekend with family, which I love doing. It's been nice to see my bro and sister more and I think baby Barghi will bring us all the more closer. And if I haven't said it a million times, I can't wait to meet my little niece. I never knew I could love something so much without even meeting her. I don't know if it's because my brother is so very special and dear to me or if it's because she will be my first niece. Either way I am ecstatic! There were times in our lives where we never thought these days would come, so I know that adds to the emotion of it all.

My dad extended his trip until mid September, I am happy that he is getting things done, but can't wait for him to be back. I miss him and when I hear his voice, I want to reach through the phone and hug him. It's crazy how much peace he gives me, I could be at the max with stress, but the minute I hear my dad say "everything is going to be fine" I feel as though it will be. I hope one day I can be half the person he is.