Busy or lazy?

I don't know if I'm just too busy these days or plain old lazy...maybe a bit of both.  Either way it has been far too long since I have sat down to write. As usual there is so much to say as I never have a dull moment in my life.

Things have been busy, hectic, draining, fun and exciting all in one.  I have had good news and bad but all in all I know that if I just continue and work hard for the next few months things will turn around.  I have been traveling a lot lately, some for work and some for pleasure.  I went to Canada with my family and got to spend an amazing week with my cousins and my niece!  It was such a joy to wake up to her everyday for one week!  She is an absolute joy and growing so quickly. I can't believe her first birthday is next week!  It feels like yesterday that I was speeding to the hospital to meet her.

After Canada I headed out to Chicago, it was my first time there.  I have to say Chicago is a pretty cool city. I never imagined it to be such a fun city.  I loved the feel of the city and that you get the city life (like NYC) but just more calm and relaxed.  Some parts of my trip were great and others disappointing...some of you know why.  However, I have learned to to stay strong and move on.  At this point in my life I have come to far to let people hurt me or get me down.

Anyway, this past weekend I was at the beach with the girls for my Kery's bachelorette weekend.  It was very nice and relaxing. I realized once I was there that I had not been to the beach in a year...which is a long time for me.  We had a great weekend and more importantly Kery had fun.  Her wedding will be here before we know it!

In between all these trips I have been making day trips with my dad to all the vineyards we are working with to collect pomice.  We have been to Alabama a few times, North GA and this week we will be in NC!  Lots of driving, PR and hard work loading the grapes.  My poor father is really working is butt off once we get the pomice. He is drying and processing everything and man do I feel for him.  At the end of everyday we remember our goal and keep working.

I am excited to see what the next few months hold for us and pray that all of our hard work pays off!

7 months today. Although time is passing so quickly there isn't a day that we don't remember and think of you.  Always in our thoughts and missing you!

I'm craving a fruity drink and the beach....oh how I wish it could come true!

Busy But Thankful

Well...ok I know it's been a while AGAIN!  I have to get back into my routine of writing, I miss it and as I always say, sometimes my best friend is a a piece of paper and a pen (in this case it is my mac book but you get the point). 

Life has been busy, we are all work and just as focused as ever.  Some things are a waiting game and I can't control the vendors or people we work with so things don't move as fast as I would like.  However, if there is one thing that I have learn this past year it's to be patient.  Other than work everything is good, my family is healthy and we are blessed so I can't complain.  My niece is the greatest joy in my life, just when I thought I couldn't love her more I fall in love with her even more!  She is absolutely precious and brings us all so much happiness.  I am so thankful that we all live close together and are able to spend as much time as we want with one another.   I know that was something that we never had growing up and I love the fact that as an aunt I am close by.

I find that I am moving on from all that has happened the past few months. I feel as though the cloud is lifting.  As they say, time heals everything.  I see my father doing better and he is absorbed in his work. I can see how badly he wants things to work and he is doing everything in his power to make sure it does.  I know that Hamid is the source of his determination.  

It's funny, when you are experiencing a dramatic event in your life, you think that it's the worst for you and no one understands what you are going through.  And not that I didn't know this but it's becoming more evident the older I get, that everyone is going through something.  Every person I talk to has a story, something tragic or difficult they are going through.  I don't know if its the current times that things are bad for people, but everyone has a story and I don't feel so alone with all that I have been through.  In fact, I feel thankful that I am still so lucky!

To Close to Give Up

I haven't written in so long and to be honest I have no clue why.  There were days when I sat down to write and I ended up staring at the computer screen.  I guess sometimes there is so much to say that I don't say anything at all.

Life has been busy to say the least, but I feel good about all that is going on.  I feel as though things will change soon and I can slowly see the light at the end of the tunnel.  I have a quote that comes to mind every time I get down or discouraged because I see it to be true, basically it states that the greatest failure is the give up only to be so close.  Every time I am close to throwing my hands up I remember that quote and I think...I have come to far and failure is not an option.  Funny, Hamid used to tell my dad, "failure is not an option for us".

I just really need for something to happen. I need to be encouraged again. I need a spark.

I'm tiered....

When?

Every so often everything catches up to me and I can't help but go into thought.  I think constantly about my business, if it will ever become something more than an idea.  I dream about all it can become and know that it has what it takes, but just needs the right push.  I know that I have come such a long way and it's only been a year, but it is very difficult to stay motivated when all you do is work and see little in outcomes.

I think about love and why at the age of 30 I still haven't found the person I want to spend my life with. I wonder if I ever will.  I look forward to the day that I find someone I can go for a run with and talk to about any and everything.  For a long time, as much as I said I was ready, I am not quite sure I was.  I have to admit, I have had a great time being single, doing what I like, traveling, working as much as I want and not having to worry about what I am doing.  However, I am slowly beginning to want more. I see my niece and she makes me want more, she makes me want a family. I just can't help but wonder...will I ever find it?