Maybe it's me

Maybe it's me. Maybe I do the same thing and it has nothing to do with the other person. I feel like I get to this point of almost caring and then I stop. I freak out and instead of talking about it or admitting to it I just close up and would rather walk away. Is that normal?

I literally have a panic attack once I get here. As time goes on I can't help but think, maybe it's me. Maybe I'm the one that can't commit or put myself out there to get hurt. I don't even understand why this happens, I don't think about it, I certainly don't want it, but never the less I always get struck with this anxiety.