Signs that I am getting older: Went home early on a Friday night so I can wake up early and go to yoga. Yup, I am definitely getting old!

I miss my dad....wish he could come home for a day so I could see him and then go back!

Catching up

Yet again I have fallen behind with writing. In the end there is really no excuse other than the fact that I haven't put the time aside. I thought I would have time in Canada to write more, but we just seemed to be so busy. Anyway the rest of my trip was great, we got to see Montreal and I really loved it there.

I was sad to part with my family, as I always am, but at the same time I was ready to be home. Nothing to do with my family, of course, it was weird I just missed being home. I missed my routine and being here. I thought this was interesting because I traveled all over and never felt that way. Maybe I just knew then that my trip was long then and I was mentally prepared to be gone for a few months.

When I got home I unpacked and was settled back in before I went to bed! Since I have been back things have been quite busy. I spent the first few days playing catch up and working like crazy. That isn't any surprise, hours go by sometimes and I realize I haven't let my computer.

Now things seems to have slowed down a bit as I am waiting on others for a few things. The big news will come once my dad returns from his trip. All things will come done to a single decision and that terrifies me. 7 months of hard work and I am waiting to hear "we got the contract"! What if...what if...I try not to even let that enter my mind.

In the long run a few months to a year isn't anything and I know that, but still you can't help but worry. Anyhow, I can't think about what I can't control and as long as I believe that, this is what I am going to do.

Other than that life is good, my mom and I spent the weekend with family, which I love doing. It's been nice to see my bro and sister more and I think baby Barghi will bring us all the more closer. And if I haven't said it a million times, I can't wait to meet my little niece. I never knew I could love something so much without even meeting her. I don't know if it's because my brother is so very special and dear to me or if it's because she will be my first niece. Either way I am ecstatic! There were times in our lives where we never thought these days would come, so I know that adds to the emotion of it all.

My dad extended his trip until mid September, I am happy that he is getting things done, but can't wait for him to be back. I miss him and when I hear his voice, I want to reach through the phone and hug him. It's crazy how much peace he gives me, I could be at the max with stress, but the minute I hear my dad say "everything is going to be fine" I feel as though it will be. I hope one day I can be half the person he is.

Changes

Life has been good, I can't complain. I know I have been very bad with writing but it seems that days fly by and I can't seem to remember. I am currently in Toronto visiting family. It's been nice, I got here a bit over a week ago and I still have one week left.

So far my visit has been wonderful, I truly came just to be with family not thinking or expecting to sight see or do anything special, but my family has taken my mom and I all over. I have to say Toronto is much bigger than I expected, I guess I pictured a very modern but not to big city. The reality is that the city is huge and there is a touch of old European architecture throughout the city. There is also a whole lot of traffic! I haven't seen anything like it, you never know when you will sit on the highway for hours. I do, however, really like the city and my hosts have been so generous to show us everything!

Today we went to visit Amoo, this was my first time at his grave sight but I am so happy to have gone. The area is beautiful, as it overlooks a lake with beautiful trees all around. There is a sense of peace and serenity there. As much as we have all accepted what has happened, there are moments were I still can't believe that it's all true. It is crazy to think how much life has changed. All we can gather is that life is so short and to take advantage of all the wonderful moments we are here.

I am so proud of my cousins that have gathered the strength to take what has happened and find the good in it all. They have shown me what it means to be strong and I admire that.

Busy Busy

My days fly by without even realizing where time goes. This last week seems like it was only 2 days! I have been super busy working both jobs and to be honest when I crawl into bed at night my body aches. I don't know if things are catching up to me but this last week I felt like someone beat me. I am constantly on the go, never sitting or resting and more importantly my mind is so occupied these days that it wears me out.

I am taking it as a good sign that we are busy rather than just sitting around. Things are going in the right direction and I have been so optimistic the last few days about it all. It finally seems like we are getting somewhere, although we have been, but now I am getting tangible results. I got my first round of bench samples and can now see what we have created! It is so exciting and I am loving this part of the work. I will say though, having your own company makes it so hard to not be working around the clock. In the end it is the amount of work you put into it that shows results so the more you work the better...well not so good for people that can lose track of time!

Anyway life is great and I am super happy! I leave for Canada at the end of this week and I can't wait! I miss my family and I know we will have a wonderful time up there. Believe it or not I feel like I need a vacation...even though I just had 6 months off. It's just that I have been on the go for the past few weeks now and I can feel it all catching up to me.

Other than that there is no big news. I had a great weekend with family and friends. I can't wait to meet my niece in 3 months and I can't seem to stop myself from buying the cutest clothes! There is so much you can do with a little girl. I never imagined being so excited to be an aunt.

Well off to bed, only to get up and work!

I'm gonna make a change, that I promise. Now more than ever I am determined to make this work and I know it will. I can feel getting closer and I see not to far away. Things are going to change.

The impossible...not so impossible!

They say incredible people do incredible things.

Five days ago my father and his best friend left to go out west and hike to the summit of Mount Whitney. After two failed attempts this was the year that my dad was determined to make it. Last year the smoke from the fires prevented him from making it so it just added to his determination.

Day one they hiked from the foot of the mountain to base camp @12,000ft. Once they got there the set camp and prepared for the next days hike to the summit and back. Once they woke up the weather took a turn for the worst. This year it seems as though it is still winter out there. From base camp up the mountain was covered in snow.

With the right determination and tools the guys made it to the summit just in time to take a few pictures, sign their names and prep for the way down. The minute they started to descend the clouds rolled in and the thunder started.

By the time they made it back to base camp the rain and hail were coming down. My dad said it took them about an hour to finally warm up in their sleeping bags. All day Wednesday while I was working I would check my phone or call my dad to see if by chance their phones were working. I started to get a bit worried by later afternoon but sure enough I got the call that said they were safe and made it to the top.

Tonight my father came home and I made a him a home cooked meal and had a card waiting for him with a glass of Barghi wine. We made a toast and chatted about his trip. I realize more and more that my father is one of the most, if not the most amazing person I know. I don't say this because he is my dad but at the age of 67 he as run 30 marathons, hiked Mount Whiney @14505 ft, biked around Lake Tahoe twice and well the list could go on. He is a man of his word.

Growing up I can remember him teaching me that when you set a goal you have to stick with it. There is no such thing as impossible or that you can't, rather once you set your mind the rest is easy. He always says more than 50% of anything is all in your mind. I can say that we were raised this way and learned this, for this I am so thankful. I see myself and know that the impossible can be reached.

I am so proud of my father!